Didn't go out with my friends anymore..Mom and I fought...

She said i was ungrateful.

She said I wasn’t responsible like other 20 year old daughters out there.

She said she doesn’t trust me.

She said someday I would be a prostitute just to keep my self living.

To paraphrase what she said, “I AM A FUCKING USELESS BITCH.”

FUCK THIS LIFE. I HATE THIS.

Rag Doll

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I’m an outcast. I’m all alone. I never find my sanctuary. Worse, I’m being backstabbed by someone I really trusted. I was betrayed. I was rejected. The saddest thing is, I feel like I’m being placed in a sack and being prepared to be launched to outer space. Gone forever. I’m lost. I’m confused. ‘You can’t please everyone.” That’s what they say. All I can do is to rephrase that to “I can’t please ANYONE.” That’s how it is for me. And it’s hard.


~ Everything Is A Mess ~


Feels like my heart’s wrapped in ice
Cold…Freezing cold…
It kills me inside,
Telling me to stop breathing.
Everything’s a mess.
I want to scream,
To run away… To vanish…
Crying doesn’t do any good.
Nothing is.
Everything’s a mess.

I don’t know what’s wrong with the world. Or is it just me? It feels like there’s no one beside me, no one out there to save me. All the other people are lucky…why must I be the only one who’s alone and unhappy?

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